1. Winston Smith had functioned as he was ordered. However, he
attempted to ‘express’ himself. Though Winston did not know what to do
with his diary, Winston, like a baby before his or her first speak, prepare to
write his thoughts in it.
2. After a period of preparation, Winston successfully recorded his confused
unconsciousness in his diary. Although he called his writing “stream of rubbish,”
Winston succeeded in expressing something.
“Suddenly he began writing in sheer
panic, only imperfectly aware of what
he was setting down” (10).
3. After a baby begins to speak, he or she will articulate opinion.
Winston learned how to ‘speak’, and started to enunciate his
emotion toward his surroundings: hatred.
“Thus, at one moment Winston’s hatred was not
turned against Goldstein at all, but, on the
contrary, against Big Brother, the Party and the
Thought Police” (17).
4. Realizing the danger of his emotion, Winston changed the
target of his animosity to the dark-haired girl, but the choice
was not a result of chance. Because he wanted to sleep with
her, but could not do so, he hated her. This reason behind
Winston’s choice reveals his sexual instinct that was abhorred
by his society.
“Winston succeeded in
transferring his hatred from the
face on the screen to the
dark-haired girl behind him” (18).
“He realized why it was that he hated her. He
hated her because she was young and pretty
and sexless, because he wanted to go to bed
with her and would never do so” (18).
5. Winston clearly knew that he loathed Big Brother through his
unconscious writing in his diary. What makes this incident different
from the first diary write is Winston’s handwriting and the content of
the writing. While the first diary was “rubbish” according to Winston,
this neat second journal showed his rancor toward Big Brother. The
unorganized mind of Winston made his first writing clumsy, but the
neat writing tells how Winston was clear about his acrimony. It was the
time of awakening for Winston.
“He discovered that while he sat helplessly
musing he had also been writing, as though by
automatic action. And it was no longer the
same cramped awkward handwriting as before.
His pen had slid voluptuously over the smooth
paper, printing in large neat capitals – DOWN
WITH BIG BROTHER” (21).
6. While all the emotions that struck Winston had involved
Big Brother or the Party, Winston felt deep sorrow for his
mother’s death. The Party did not want any unnecessary
emotion that could possibly hinder it from the perfect
dominion over citizens, so it used every way to halt people
from such emotions. However, Winston felt grief, and the
tragic emotion that Winston felt was a clear sign of his
“The thing that now suddenly struck
Winston was that his mother’s death,
nearly thirty years ago, had been tragic
and sorrowful in a way that was no longer
possible. Tragedy, he perceived, belonged to
the ancient time” (35).
7. Dreaming, Winston saw a girl with dark hair who “tore off
her clothes and flung them disdainfully aside” (36). He realized
the simple movement can turn Big Brother and the Party into
nothing. Winston once showed his sexual desire toward a
woman, but was not aroused by this dream. Instead, he was
overwhelmed by the gesture, which belongs to the ancient
time, and understood how a great existence can be denied so
"With its grace and carelessness it seemed to
annihilate a whole culture, a whole system of
thought, as though Big Brother and the Party
and the Though Police could all be swept into
nothingness by a single splendid movement of
the arm” (36).
8. Although Winston despised the world he lived in, he was
content with his work in the Ministry of Truth: falsification of
history. He could not reveal shrewdness in public, but was
able to expand his thought in his workplace. The task given by
the Party was often challenging, so Winston himself
developed as he forged history. He even thought that the
order from the Party was not enough to make the story fit,
and decided to add “a piece of fantasy” to make the
falsification more reasonable.
“Winston’s greatest pleasure in life was in
his work. Most of it was a tedious routine,
but included in it there were also jobs so
difficult and intricate that you could
yourself in them as in the depths of a
mathematical problem” (51).
9. Winston revealed his sexual desire again through his diary.
Unable to restrain his lust, he went to sleep with a filthy, old prole.
Although he was writing what he had done in the diary, Winston
felt ashamed of the disgusting choice he had made, and regretted
“He had an almost overwhelming temptation to shout a string
of filthy words at the top of his voice. Or to bang his head
against the wall, to kick over the table and hurl the inkpot
through the window – to do any violent or noisy or painful thing
that might black out the memory that was tormenting him” (73).
10. Winston had not really spoken about rebellion. However, he
began to relate hope with rebellion, and specifically mentioned
proles to be the driving force of the revolution. In spite of the
surfeit of propaganda from the Party, Winston perceived the
reality correctly; he knew the significance of proles whom
everyone ridicules. Winston knew that the rebellion would be
successful with the population advantage of proles, but it would
not happen because proles were not conscious. He was not just
an idealist, but also a realist.
“If there is hope, wrote Winston, it lies in the
proles. If there is hope, it must lie in the proles,
because only there, in those swarming
disregarded masses, 85 per cent of the
population of Oceania, could the force to
destroy the Party ever be generated” (80).
“All he had to do was to transfer to paper the
interminable restless monologue that had
been running inside his head, literally for